listening to this will get me crying, It's about 6 months, and it still feels fresh

this is so evocative....
 bad weather ,
the big drive and a very muddy burial.....
"tears stream down your face, when you loose something ....you can't replace."
"When you love someone but it goes to waste, what could be worse?"
It's true ....
but you have to keep going and that's the difficult bit.